Matisyahu saved my life this time.

So this was the third attempt at rescuing a bird. We had my original bluejay, the robin with the broken leg, and Scherbatsky who lasted a day. I was buying things for her like an eye dropper or whatever and I get the text from my dad, "the bird is with Jesus" That happened on Monday, and I am finally ok, and it's Saturday, I went to some very dark places. I felt like a failure. I was assured that I wasn't, but I had the eye dropper for water and she was eating the worms and I thought I was doing everything right. Thank god every time I lost one of them I wasn't there to see it happen. But during this period all I did was take my meds and sleep. I don't remember the days because they are all the same day. I'm talking to this girl that I like. I don't want to expect too much. Been burned too many times in the past. We have been talking for about 2 weeks. *evil laugh* I win this round myspace. gotta jet. good things today. I'm happy. Becky makes me happy. I have my besties. For now, life is good.