I need to take a step back

It gets so hard when I get stressed out and I don't know what to do. It gains a lot, the stress doesn't seem to just plateau it gets bigger and bigger. I am taking deep breaths and trying to think happy thoughts and just hope that I can hold on, because sometimes, still, I feel alone. I just am happy that I am going to get time away from the house and maybe it will help with perspective. I need to get out of there and I need to take a step back and breathe... Horrible things can happen. I am always worrying and I am always at least a little bit nervous but I need to be comfortable. Being how thing are...feeling what I feel. It's like I can't breathe. I feel like its killing me not being able to breathe. I think maybe I just need to let go.