a message to Hank

Hey Luv,

Just wanted to say hi, We haven't talked in a while. So I am only having a little difficulty in school, my grades so far are better than I expected. I haven't been studying well and I know it's going to bite me in the ass. I got a 98% on my narrative essay and 100% on my descriptive essay!!! I turned in my comparison essay yesterday so I won't know until probably Monday how well I did. I had my midterm and she had to grade on a curve so I actually got an 84% but because we didn't do well I got 10 more points and so I got a 94% instead. I am proud, mostly, of the work that I have been doing. The girls that I have to be grouped with make me sad. I had a hard time getting something and they were trying to explain it to me and I couldn't get it through my head what they were saying so when I was leaving I kind of gave them a look and it was mostly because I couldn't get it and that made me feel like an idiot. We are doing our presentation about love. I think its a great thing to make a definition presentation about and then the paper as well, which is only going to be 2-3 pages. I don't really know what exactly what I am going to say.

Sis is pregnant. I'm happy for her...but it doesn't really affect me. This child won't know me so I guess I am having my own party where pity makes an appearance. ;p She doesn't want anyone to know, and because she isn't that far along I can see why she would want to keep it to herself, but it also hurts that I am never important enough for me to know anything. I don't understand how she wanted me to be her maid of honor and when stuff like this is coming up I don't even get to know unless mom tells me.

I'm still happy that your name is on my foot. No regrets there. losing you was up there with losing Grams. Speaking of tattoos I got one recently of the Celtic symbol for sisters. Jess and I got them on our left ankles on the inside of the leg. I am planning to get another leg piece this year. I want to get Sorcha and 6 swans on my right leg, below the knee, on the inside of the leg. I'm probably gonna have it get touched up but that happens. I also want to get my "heart on my sleeve" on my left shoulder...this is boring you isn't it? I know you weren't into this stuff.

I still miss you like crazy. You are one of the only 2 people that I have ever loved in my life...I gotta go, I am fucked up on my medications. I love you. *<3* your slore