Trying to deal.

I finally told my doctor I just wanted to be on the seroquel and depakote. She raised the seroquel way to much and on Saturday it was so hard to stay awake. I couldn't take it yesterday. I was fine on the dose I was on but now she raised it a lot. I hope I get used to it fast. Maybe I should just tell her I feel like a zombie. It's so hard for me to find the fine line of where everything works. It bums me out not knowing how to feel normal. Even right now it's hard to think. I gotta go. Hoping to write today. Oh and my computer died. It's so hard to find the silver lining these days.