3 years

so tired. haven't been sleeping well lately...i guess it's too much reading, taking vicodin, school, stress, forgetting meds, missing appointments, deciding on getting the birth control implant and getting my tubes tied, missing my girls, feeling pulled in every direction, losing steam for classes, worried I am going to snap at Jesus freak, wanting a mix of vicodin and xanax and eventually falling asleep after having to take sleeping pills. I'm lonely, still don't know what/who I want. I wonder if I will ever be content again. I was happy in the fall and then content and doing so well. I don't even know how to get back.