So not in the mood

I don't know what the reason is, but I am not feelin it for the holiday season. I don't want to be around anyone and any preparations towards anything is always being thwarted. I am done buying what I need. I was planning on getting something extra for my mom, but I have decided fuck that. All she has done this week is piss me off. She sits on her ass when she gets home until she goes to bed and any attempt of me trying to better this house isn't even appreciated. She should feel lucky that anyone would want to help her with her hoarding problem and HER shithole of a mess. I can wait until I don't live here anymore. I hate it here and all it does is depress me and yet again something no one cares about except me. I am sick of all of this. I should just tell her to take back whatever she got me and just stay away from everyone I know. This has been a horrible season and I can't wait for it to be over. I hope my mood improves because I can't take much more of this.