1 year...

"...He'd thought about this part, too 'I'll follow after as soon as I can.'"...

I miss you as much today as I did a year ago.

I keep reading these books over and over and it makes me sad when I get to that part and the other one that's a few chapters before...

"...'I don't think he ever planned to outlive you by long,' Alice said quietly.'"...

I did though, I outlived you by a year so far. It hurts that sometimes I wish I could just follow you, so I won't have to be here anymore. Mom was worried about me and I guess she had reason to, it's just odd because I see where she's coming from but I don't think I am as bad as she thinks I am.

I lost the ring I bought that was for you. Well, misplaced is probably a better word but I don't know what the fuck I did with it. Help me out mofo.

God I miss you. I am pretty depressed today.

I think I might save up for the collector's edition of Twilight. It's like $30, but I like the series so I see it as a good buy.

There is so much I want to say, but I can't find words to express how I feel.

I should go. To much going on in my head.

It's been a year, I still miss you, I still love you.

<3 Love Monkey