Getting better.

I am feeling like I am getting back on track again. I am rescheduling all of the appointments that I have missed and that always helps with my self esteem. I feel like when I have something to do I have a purpose for getting up that day. I am of the mentality that if you don't have anything special going on then I don't worry about some things like getting dressed or showering and because of stuff like that I fall into disrepair.

I have school techniquly today and I am happy I didn't have any homework because it was hard to focus this week. I still have to read a chapter in my CSS course and I haven't even cracked the book yet. I have to do dishes when I get out of bed and god knows what else. It helps to keep busy because if I am left to my thoughts in this house, it can be maddening.

Saw Shameless with Mom today...so not a show to watch with your parents. I like the show though, very interesting and crazy.

I was going to keep my refund money for renascence festival, but I was thinking about getting a tattoo or two for me and one for mom. I really want to get the one for mom so if I can pull it off I'd be very happy. I am debating on getting a tablet. I can't afford to get an iPad...but getting a nook tablet I think would be pretty awesome. It wouldn't have 3G or a camera or a couple other perks, but honestly I really just want it to see my Netflix movies on it and whatever I want to watch on YouTube. Whatever else I can pretty much do on my phone, so it's tempting to get it but I have a minute to figure it out. I was thinking about saving up for something but I don't really want anything that's more expensive or anything and I don't think I owe anyone money except my parents, but that's a million dollars so I don't know, maybe j can just give the
Some...I don't know.

Onto other things.

The bookstore closes early tomorrow and I want to pick up some supplies so I want to go there, but I would feel stupid gong there twice so I need to figure out a way to go without wasting gas. Hm.

I need to sleep!!! Hate that I have such a problem sleeping. Always either too much or too little.

I am on a mission to find Berry Voluntary Ben & Jerry's ice cream again. Raspberry cheesecake ice cream with white chocolate chunks & raspberry swirls! I don't remember where I got the one that I ate yesterday. It's making me mad because I went to most of the stores in the surrounding areas and I couldnt figure it out so I think the last place I need to try is walmart up on hall road.

I hate that one of my antidepressants is a dissolving pill. Bleck.

Off to bed I hope.