Oh

And I borked up with the woman that I thought I was going to marry. One day I just woke up And didn't love her anymore. I don't know if I will ever love anyone again. I'm just too unlucky in love.

Sad again

Thought I knew myself again. Thought I was gay, but I was just coming to terms with the fact that I could date a woman am not feel like it was a horrible thing. It didn't work, but haven't had much luck in love. Practically engaged but I ended it and already tried jumping in with both feet trying to get a guy. It's like I can't be good enough. I try to just give it my all, but I end up getting used or hurt horribly emotionally. I am so sad lately. I feel so overwhelmed with school and I can't take it. I am so sad and worried that I won't make it. I just wish I wasn't so easily depressed. I started thinking about cutting again and it just sucks so bad that I don't know what to do with my life. I feel so behind but I also have no will to go to school anymore. When will it get better? I am so sure it won't. It's always two steps forward and three steps back. I don't want to end up in the hospital but that will probably end up happening again. I hate my life.